Thursday, January 25, 2007

Preggo Journal, Jan 25

I haven't really thought much about the pregnancy, honestly. I've had a lot on my mind regarding the move and making sure everything that needs to get taken care of - GETs taken care of!

I haven't been feeling much of anything lately - the boob tenderness is still definitely there, but I find if I wear a good bra coupled with a tank top with a built in bra and then a shirt on top, it keeps the girls pretty well in place and I don't notice it much throughout the day. No cramping to speak of, still no nausea (keeping fingers and toes crossed that it continues that way!). I guess I'm getting a little gassier, but I don't know if that is just the lasagna I made, or because of the baby......(or I guess its still zygote at this point - I don't think I can call it a baby until I get to the "interactive uterus" portion of the pregnancy, when the babe starts flippin around in there and stuff). And in general, I'm more gassy than the next girl, so again, I haven't given it much thought.

I suppose I'm still tired too - turning into sleep at around 10 - 10:30, and falling asleep shortly thereafter. I haven't been waking up much during the night either, so I feel pretty good when I wake up. Which is kind of nice. Oh, don't get me wrong - I'm still lollygaggin' to get out of bed, but its just because its soooo cold out there and not so much because I'm tired.

What else did I learn in baby land today - well, I learned how to give a sponge bath for a new baby - and after the belly button grossness falls off (which, I am SOOO not keeping and putting in a scrapbook, that is sooo gross) you get to put them in the tub thingys. The pictures of the babies were sooo stinkin' cute!

OK, thats all for now. Not sure how much preggo thought journals I'll be having over the next few days since I plan on being swamped and not online hardly - but know that if anything comes up, I'll let you know!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Preggo Journal, Jan 23

I got my books in the mail today. I bet you're wondering how I got them so quickly here in Mexico. I won't tell you how much I paid for shipping, but lets suffice to say it was worth it, because now my infinite thirst for knowledge can be quenched. I hope.

I woke up today pretty nauseated. I thought I read somewhere that eating bananas helps. So I did - and it seemed to work. I didn't have time for any other breakfast - besides, I didn't have any frozen fruit to mix with my shake - so I just headed to work. But then I was hungry for something more so I went to McDonald's. Apparently greasy food just doesn't really sit well with me. It didn't taste all that great, and I couldn't finish the hashbrown or McMuffin....but the OJ was hella yummy. I'll be pretty happy if I have an aversion to greasy food. It will be better for me and for Baby O'Brien......especially since I have a history of Gall Bladder issues - of which pregnancy seems to exacerbate. My mom had her gall bladder taken out right after I was born - she said every time she had an attack while she was pregnant she thought she was having a heart attack. Sooo......if I avoid greasy fatty foods - then I should be able to avoid feeling like I'm dying. We'll try it - see how it works out :)

Just checked - yup, my belly is still fuzzy. SO SO strange.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Weekend Preggo Thoughts....Jan 20-21

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Felt pretty good today – although it was the first day I really felt tiiiired. I had a full night of sleep last night, then took a 90 minute nap too! I'm hoping that I still go to bed at a normal hour tonight…

Boobs – feeling OK. Tummy – kinda sorta crampy, they come and go, but more or less OK. Nausea – still not really any morning sickness. There has been a bit of loss of appetite, apparently that's part of the morning sickness ralm. Definitely more food aversons…..today, it was Chorizo, waffles and butter popcorn flavor. EEEEEWWWWW!!!!!!! I walked into Home Depot, and it almost made my TOSS MY COOKIES. Kind of a bummer, because its really going to ruin the whole movie going experience if that continues. I mean, I can go without eating the gooey goo goo on my popcorn, but how can you enter a theater without smelling it? Oy Vei.

I can deal with aversions – because I can block out the smell and not hurl……I'm still crossing my fingers morning sickness holds off. I don't wanna barf, I don't wanna barf, I don't wanna barf, I don't wanna barf, I don't wanna barf, I don't wanna barf, I don't wanna barf, I don't wanna barf, I don't wanna barf. Get the picture?

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I guess I've focused on more the symptoms of pregnancy, and not so much the physical changes. I suppose that's because I know I'm not going to get a bump for quite a long time – so the rest of it doesn't really interest me! On the pregnancy boards – that's what most people are talking about – how they are "feeling".

Well, today, as I was in the shower, I was able to take a good look at myself. I enjoy my weekend showers because of that – there isn't any big rush to get anywhere, so I can just take my time. I often bring in my pedicure/manicure stuff in there with me, so after I'm done showering I can just sit there and give my digits a little love.

Where was I – oh yeah, looking at myself. I did notice quite a while ago my nipples were darkening – even before I took the pregnancy test. As far as I know, this is relatively normal and is to be expected. I also noticed today, as I was admiring my girls, that this will probably be the end of them as I know it. It makes me pretty sad, since I'm a big fan of my breasts, and even though they've grown and sagged a bit, I'm still pretty fond of them. They have grown probably two inches (taking measurements at the nipple line) and they are definitely headed southbound, if you know what I mean. There's nothing I can do to stop it, so I am really trying to look at it in a different light. These breasts will be giving life nutrients to a Baby O'Brien in a matter of a few months, so how can I really look at their changes as negative?

I've also noticed a significant amount of veins towards the surface of the skin on my chest and breasts....this has been an issue of mine for pretty much ever – when I was super skinny I could always seen the veins on my chest – bright blue map lines. It seemed when there was a little bit more of me to love, the veins were not as apparent, but with my changing hormones and function they have come back again.

Something pretty cool I noticed today in the shower was the growth of my nails, on my hands and tosies. I've heard many things of people having super nail and hair growth once they are on pre-natal vitamins, but I'm not taking an official pre-natal yet....just a Woman's One-A-Day (checked out my OB/Gyn here). There is a definite change in the old growth, to the current growth – and the change is what I would assume to be occurring about a month ago. It looks healthier, I'm assuming, but we'll have to wait and see. I hope it is, because my nails have been rather brittle and icky as of late….it would be nice to be able to keep them all pretty and painted.

OK, so now the whammy of all changes. Um....I'm getting hairy. No, not in the normal places. My normal shaved hair is all growing back rather slowly since their last shaving....the problem is the rest of my body. OK, not the entire rest of it, but my boobs and belly. WTF?? No one told me I was going to turn into Chewbacca!!!! OK, yes, it is just peach type fuzz, and just blondie, but its definitely noticeable. And it kind of creeps me out!!! I'm hoping (and assuming) its normal, and not just an effect of the inseminator's hairiness....

I'm hoping I get my baby books tomorrow, so I have some good reading action :) that would make me pretty stinkin' happy!

Friday, January 19, 2007

Preggers Jan 19

hmmm----my pants feel kind of tight, which is strange because I've actually lost a couple of pounds. Maybe its just bloat-ness? either way, its rather uncomfortable and I wish I could rush to Target and Old Navy to buy CUTE preggo clothes! I was looking online today and they are just too stinkin cute! And affordable too :)

Geez. My boobs. MY BOOOOOOOBS. Owie ZOWIE! no one ever mentioned the "tenderness" would border on TORTURE......

The light-headed-ness is kind of concerning to me. Its not to the point of passing out or anything, but I can definitely notice it. Maybe due to low blood pressure? or low blood sugar? I have a tendancy not to snack in the afternoons at work, and that is when it has seemed the worse so far....so maybe I should be snacking? I was reading somewhere that when woman passed out in the olden days that was a surefire sign she was all knocked up and stuff.....so maybe it just comes with the territory.

I'm relatively nauseous right now. I can do nausea. Its just underlying.....and so far no food aversions or all out barfing yet. I'm cool as long as there is no barfing. I really don't want to yak. I hate yaking. More than the next girl, I think. It makes me shakey and cry-ey and all around makes me an unbearable person to be around. Altoids help the nausea....but I'm trying not to eat all my Altoids before the 1st....that way if the morning sickness is bad, they will help with the drive. I can't find any altoids here at all......so I have to ration them. Orbit gum seems to work OK too - but the Altoids are just so much better. If I knew I was going to be all pregnant and stuff, I would have purchased more before coming back to Mexico. Hind sight is 20/20 though.

Re: baby names.....I'm happy that Pat O'Brien and I seemed to have moved past the butting heads about the names thing. I think broadening our name search to more than just Mexican names helped. Not sure why I was on that kick. The kids will be American first and foremost anyway.....

I'm still thinking it would be cool to have twins. Well, I was thinking that anyway. But then I had this vision of Pat & I walking on the beach with a kid between us...swinging the kid giggling with glee with every couple of steps. It would be kind of hard to swing two kids at once while walking on the beach.....so maybe one wouldn't be so bad. And with one, it would be more likely that we could still "get it on" right up until delivery date.....twins always bring complications and precautions......

I was able to talk to Beth today and tell her - she was so excited for me! (or as excited as you can be on IM :) ) She says a big giant MOZEL TOV to me and Pat...she's so cute :) Now I just have to hit Eunice - then Lisa and I'll be set until after my first appointment. still trying to decide what to do about that, by the way. On one hand, I want to get in there ASAP - but I don't think I want to go there alone........so I might have to do some arrangeing to fit Pat's schedule.......
My baby books are on thier way - they should arrive next week sometime. The sooner the better - I want to get reading!

OK - tis all for now. Until Monday......

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Preggo Journal, Jan 18

Soooooo............feeling a bit more of the symptoms today. Just enough to be annoying, not bad enough to keep me home under the covers. A touch of nausea - a bit more boob hurting, some more light headed-ness and definitely some more emotional mood swings. And, I'm tired today. Oh, then there is the heightened sensitivity to smell.

There are a lot of foul smells here in Mexico - mostly dealing with old, unkept busses and trucks, and the occational over polluting company - but for the most part they are relatively easy to stomach. Nope - not today. I almost horked on a bus full of people because it felt like I was, once again, sucking on the most horridly disgusting tailpipe ever. Ick. And its nearly impossible to avoid them either. I'm pretty much forced to not enjoy the 75° weather with the windows down and the wind in my hair - I'm holed up with the A/C on recirculate. At least it helps.

I've been eating Altoids Smalls to keep the nausea at bay. seems to be working so far. I talked to my mom today and asked her if she was sick at all during her pregnancies - she said yup. Apparently I was the worst. She said she was sick from basically conception all the way to the delivery room. In fact, the two times she misscarried she knew something was wrong because she wasn't sick at all. Strange eh? Except with Karli......she wasn't sick at all with Karli either.

She was wondering why the heck I was reading about miscarriages and all the bad stuff that can happen - and I said because thats just how I am. I am an information monger......with all aspects of my life. Learning new info gives me something to do. She told me to just enjoy being pregnant. I think I'll take that advice. I'll just wait for my books to show up, read them, and if any other quesitons come up then I can look it up online or as my doctor.....I really should enjoy just being pregnant.

I also asked her about when I should announce to the world my baby-to-be....she said after the wedding :o) Of course! But, what about my friends, I asked? She said, well, if you're bursting at the seams, tell them - but also tell them why you're cautious - so they don't tell the whole world either....so I did. I talked to Danica earlier today - and I also plan on telling Eunice, Beth & Lisa. I'll feel better, for whatever reason, that they know.
I was thinking last night as I was in my bed all by my lonesome, how difficult it must be for young girls or single women who get pregnant and have no support at all. Really, I have all the support in the world, albiet a bit far away, and it still feels lonely. I can't even imagine how they do it, against all odds, with no one to hug or love them. Its just kind of sad.\n
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I was thinking last night as I was in my bed all by my lonesome, how difficult it must be for young girls or single women who get pregnant and have no support at all. Really, I have all the support in the world, albiet a bit far away, and it still feels lonely. I can't even imagine how they do it, against all odds, with no one to hug or love them. Its just kind of sad.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Preggo Journal, Jan 17


So, I can't really go all posting all this stuff on my blog, seeing as how we've only just told our families, but I don't want to wait to journal at all until we've decided its safe to "spread the news" because that will probably be after the wedding!


So, I guess I'll just "blog" to myself – and then maybe post these at a later date.


So (how many times can I start a paragraph with "so"?) how am I feeling about all this? Pregnancy. WOW! I can't believe it! In a million ways I am very excited about it all, but in about a hundred ways I'm scared too. The fear is leaving me more and more though – which is good.


Lets start from the beginning – I decided to take a pregnancy test (First Response, Uso FacĂ­l purchased from Wal Mart) not because I missed my period, but just because I had a hunch. Keep in mind, I also had a hunch in December too – when I bought two tests (they were both negative) but I figured I'd give it a go anyway.


So, I went jogging at the mall after I dropped Keith off at work, then went to Wal-Mart to buy the test and a couple other things. I got home, ate breakfast, was cooling down a bit…….doing some scrapping and surfing.


Finally, I decided to get ready to take a shower, but I took the test first. After about one minute, I could already make out the faint, pink, second line. I was like "NO WAY!!!". I double checked on line (directions in English) and sure enough – two lines means baby!!!


I took a pic of the test, made a little layout…..jumped in the shower and when I got out I called Pat O'Brien.


Lets put this all into perspective here for a second. Both Pat O'Brien and I really really REALLY have wanted a family for some time. I mean REALLY. Seriously EAGER beavers man. Obviously, we've exercised some restraint because who wants to be all knocked up and living far far away from her honeybuns, right? I'm pretty sure everyone in our family knew we were getting ready to start trying. Well, this last visit, we decided we'd just wait and see what happened. We didn't really think it would stick on the first try, kwim?


After getting back to Mexico after our Christmas/New Years visit I started to think – you know, maybe we should wait a bit longer – give me some time to settle into my job, give us some time to travel and do some fun things……..and no sooner had I "decided" that, did I get the positive test.
And really, I don't think it all matters. Everyone tries to have a plan, and as much as we try to control it Life always seems to find a way to make what's supposed to happen, happen.


So here we are.


The positive test was Saturday, January 13, about 11:00AM or so. I went to my gynecologist here, Dr. Quiroz, on Monday, January 15 for confirmation. He has all this fancy super cool ultra sound equipment, so we used that first to see if we could detect the little ball of cells, but unfortunately, it was too early. I did get a picture of my vaginal canal though LOL! So, we used another urine test and it was DEFINITELY two bright big purple lines! I was excited – he was excited – I think it was then it really hit me.


I haven't really been having any symptoms at all – just super tender boobs – and the occasional twinge from the womb every now and again. I wouldn't even call them cramps. No really strange cravings or nausea or anything, which is really good – although I have been seriously wanting (and subsequently making) arroz con leche. I've eaten one batch already, and made another one on Monday. Soo yummy. And cheese too. I guess I've been a bit moodier as of late….Oh yeah, and there is also the whole not having my period thing, as well as elevated body temperatures :) That is definitely a sign!


So, what have I been doing over the past four days since I found out, officially, that I am bearing child? Well, we've told our families – that was kind of cool. Not sure if my family is all that excited because we're not married yet – but I'm sure they'll come around. Its not like we weren't planning it, you know?


Wow – I am four weeks along today. Wow wow wow wow.


I'm trying not to worry or flip out too much- and I'm doing a good job of it so far. I tend to err on the side of hypochondria, and know that all that added stress won't be good for a babe in womb, so I decided to stop being a crazy person, which is cool. The only grain of concern I have is because of the MMR booster I got at the end of December. They all told me to wait a month before we conceived…..and we were both aware of it – but I think that got pushed aside to the "wait and see what happens – no way it will take on the first try" mentality.


I feel actually much more relaxed than I have in a while, too. I think its because I know I don't have a lot of control over what's going on in there, and I'm totally OK with that. Yes, shocker I know – me giving up control. I mean, yes, I can control what's going in there – more good things, more vitamins, no alcohol, limited caffeine, and I'm avoiding smoke like the plague because I seem to be much more sensitive to it…….I'm glad I gave those up years ago! As Pat O'Brien put it – "Its time to start livin right". But, aside from the inputs – I don't have control. Really, its in God's hands. There are people who can do everyting to the textbook – and still have complications or miscarriages, there are people who do everything wrong, or who don't change anything and have healthy babies.

I realize its all about improving your chances, and I know I'll do everything I can possibly do to achieve those better odds – but I don't want to become neurotic about stuff – because really, for every expert that says something is bad for you there is another expert somewhere else saying that it can be good. There is soooooo much stinkin information out there – and there are people who are worried about every little movement or pain or change in their bodies – and I don't want to be those people. I don't want to worry.


So I'm just going to try to live healthy and happy, and hope my baby, our baby follows suit.

I did purchase a couple of books – "What to expect when you're expecting" and "The Girlfriend's guide to Pregnancy" – both recommended by people on my scrapbook board. I wasn't planning on buying any books, because there is just so much info online that I figured I wouldn't need it. But, I'm sure it will be nice to read through an article or chapter without seeing "CLICK HERE to preserve your baby's cord cells" blinking at me every two seconds. I also got Pat O'Brien a book too – it's called "My Boys Can Swim!!!" Amazon recommended that after I was looking at the other books. It has an adorable name, and it had a lot of positive reviews, so I figured what the heck. If he reads it, great, if not, not a big deal. I'm sure I'll be sharing all sorts of things with him as time moves along, anyway, so he will be informed one way or another.


I'm not sure how into this whole thing he is. He tells me not to read into anything, but of course, I can't help it. I want him to be excited – I guess he's not the overly expressive type, so its hard to judge though, you know? He felt the same way when I told him (via a little scrapbook page) – excited, but guarded, and kind of scared – and he said he's moved to the Excited area, but I'm still not sure. I feel like he's holding back something, and I'm not sure what. I'm hoping whatever it is, we can dish it out over the next couple weeks, or figure it out when I get there in February.


Speaking of February, I scheduled my first prenatal appointment with my OB/GYN that I met last July. He was very cool and really nice. Seemed open to work with whatever I wanted, as far as birthing options go. It will be February 15……8 weeks pregnant. I'm really happy we decided to do the pre-pregnancy check up, so this won't be the first time I meet him. His name is Dr. Kelsey….funny, eh? The hospital we'll be going to is actually constructing an entire new women's center with all sorts of state of the art stuff, but I don't think we'll be late enough. It's supposed to open Fall of 2007 – and my approximate due date (based on all the online calendar calculators) is about September 26, 2007.


Speaking of birthing options – no way I'm doing all natural – no way no how. Give me drugs – give me an epidural – make it as easy and quick as possible. I figure, we have all this great technology and everything, why not use it!? I realize every woman has an opinion on to what is best for them – but people, keep it to yourself! Just because you think a water birth will be perfect to you, doesn't mean it's the only way to do it!!!


OK, one more thing, and I guess I've written enough for today. One thing Pat and I have decided is

that we don't want to know the sex of the baby until the day its popped out. Really, I had no preference either way – it would be cool to know, but it would be cool to be a surprise too. So, since Pat wanted to wait, it was very easy for me to concede to that. Its all about compromise, right?


List of Medications I've been taking

MMR Booster Shot – 0.5 ml 12-22-06

Hepatitis B #3 –1.0 ml 12-22-06

Sinus Infection/allergies

Antibiotic (Cephlaspore) Xannit? 500 mg 2x per day 1-5-07 – 1-19-07

Claritin – 10 mg 1x per day 1-5-07 – 1-12-2007

Nose spray – 2 sprays once a day – 1-5-07 – 2-5-07

Woman's One A Day Vitamin - daily