Wednesday, April 25, 2007

We have LIFT OFF

I've been waiting and waiting to actually feel some baby movements as of late. I'll feel a flutter or two, THINK its the baby, then talk myself out of it like its gas or my imagination. This morning, there was NO mistaking the babe movin' about in me! It was like he did a triple sow cow or something - just HUGE! It was so awesome! I was walking and just had to stop because he was really moving about. It was such a strange feeling! HOORAY for moving babies!

I also really noticed my uterus popping out today as I was in the bathtub....the chubby part of my belly lays low, so the part of my belly thats inflated was super noticeable. The uterus is still below the belly button - but its definitely getting closer and closer. I probably should take a picture of my innie before it pops out....mental note.

I also feel like I've FINALLY put the finishing touches on my pregnancy wardrobe. I went to Old Navy yesterday and picked up a couple more T-shirts and tank tops, polo shirts for work, an ADORABLE velour capri running suit, and a pair of shorts. Oh, and some flip flops. I've promised Pat that was the last shopping spree - and the money was well spent....now I can look in my closet and have choices and not be super upset that nothing fits me. And if we can avoid me being upset or crying, it would be best :) Cuz if momma ain't happy, ain't no body happy :)

Sunday, April 22, 2007

E.

As in Elephants. Ernie. Equinox.

or.....

as in eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeoooooooooooohhhhmygodmyboobsaresohuge.

After suffering in discomfort last week I finally went to a maternity store today and purchased a sublime comfort maternity bra, specially made for huge knockers.

It was a 40 E.

Yes ladies and germs, somehow over the course of the last week I managed to not only outgrow half of my clothes, but also most of my bras - all while only gaining 2 pounds (although it feels like about 50). I started this out as a 38C - or maybe Dish in some styles. The great news (that's dripping with sarcasm folks) - they'll only get bigger.

The whole process was a bit overwhelming for me......it was like some kind of mental block I had about my boobs getting this huge. I've always been a big fan of my jugs - but this is just ridiculous. And I was so sad to get a bra that big. Its like it made the rest of my body all of the sudden ginormous.

The other issue I had was shopping by myself today. It just made me a bit depressed. I almost cried about four times - and I've never been one who was a big tag team shopper or anything....but it just felt so lonely today. My friends are far far away, and my mom and sister are too. So it was just me in the dressing rooms contemplating whether or not I was actually starting to look pregnant, or if it was all an illusion and I was just actually just fat and frumpy with ill fitting clothes.

It really isn't a good place to be when I should be celebrating the fact that my body is an amazing machine creating an actual life inside me right now. I guess its just hard to focus on that when you feel like your body is being morphed into some sideshow parallel universe version of yourself.

*sigh*

Such is the emotional roller coaster of pregnant life.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

OK, last one - seriously.

I just had to make a quick note about how STINKIN tired I am. And sweet lord, my back is killing me.

But, I did make a new purchase today :) I got a body pillow from bed, bath and beyond. It is supurb. I took an hour nap with it today, and I'm excited to go to bed tonight! Sweet dreams to me!

Boys are the cutest :)

We recently received news that one of Pat's college buddies recently was blessed with a new baby boy last week! He's so adorable and cuddly, with a big head of black hair! Congratulations to Mike & Gina :)

Along those lines, we also learned that two other friends of Pat's(one from college, another from high school) are expecting in July. One boy, one girl. I guess that means if we want to keep things even, we should expect a girl :) I thought it was rather funny that all four of them were expecting their first child this year.......I guess 30 is the age for new babies!!!

I also have the most adorable reasoning for why Pat would like a baby girl......

OK, let me back up - I would like a boy, Pat is hoping for a girl, but in reality - it absolutely doesn't matter at all. 10 fingers, 10 toes, we'll be ecstatic. Honestly, I think we're "picking" because we're just making it more interesting.... and we're very competitive peoples :) This way, somebody will "win". No, we don't have any money on it....yet.

Anyway, so we were talking about this whole thing, and the real reason why Pat wants a girl comes out. Because little girls are way cuter. And because little girls always love their daddies. HA! That is sooo cute! This big ol' grizzly bear of a man, looking so tough on the exterior, just wants to be wrapped around the finger of a little girl. Seriously - my heart just melted when he said that....I think it made me love him more (if that's even possible).

RAV-EN-OUS!!!!

Seriously - who stole my body and replaced my appetite with that of a Tyrannosaurus Rex??? I'm not exactly sure what has happened over the past few days, but it seems as if I've been eating absolutely everything in sight, and then 5 minutes later I'm hungry again.

This would also explain why I've managed to finally gain weight - a mere 4 pounds - but it feels like a MILLION!!!!! I feel rather, well, Giant. The good news is that my maternity pants fit pretty well. The bad news is that I feel like a sausage officially in my pre-maternity wear. And my back is starting to hurt. And I feel off balance. And that makes me crabby.

I've begun to make a conscious effort to reach for healthier, more filling snacks instead of crap (i.e. candy bars and doritos), which seems to make a difference in the Feedings. I have some cottage cheese, yogurt, sharp cheddar, triscuits, celery, hummus and carrots.....ecetera, ecetera. As long as Pat keeps the chocolate and ice cream out of the house I should be OK.

Oh, I also discovered that if I don't have what I'm craving right away - I actually DO NOT pass out and die. Amazing, isn't it?

Saturday, April 14, 2007

A-OK!

Pat and I went to the quickest OB appointment ever on Friday, and everything looks A-OK :) The doc stuck the dopplar on my belly, and we were able to hear our little blob's heartbeat right away....it was SUCH a great feeling! I didn't actually believe it at first, until the doc told me to take my own pulse and notice the difference in beats. Sure nuff, baby O'Brien was at around 150 bpm and mine was way way lower.

No real major discussions - here's a bit of what we discussed:

Weight: I still haven't gained any weight, but there wasn't much talk about that (its not that big of a deal yet).
Golf: I was worried that all the twisting motions wouldn't be too good for baby. But no worries! Since everything has been healthy so far, there aren't any restrictions. He did warn me that rarely does pregnancy help improve someone's game, so don't expect to be getting better anytime soon :)
Sex: After sex and/or an orgasm I get slight cramping, and although I've read in a million different places that its relatively normal, I just wanted to mention it to him so he was aware. Yes, it is very normal, and now he is aware.
Genetic Testing Results: I wanted to make sure he got the results of the testing. He did, and he mentioned there was a note that some of the results showed I had a potential risk for some fetal development issues (re: slow growth rate and such). But he's not worried about it - it might just mean a couple extra ultrasounds later on to make sure things are going well. Also, I had some more blood drawn to check for other potential abnormalities. Despite the hypochondriac that I normally am - I haven't worried one bit about the health of this bean. I'm definitely not going to worry about "potential" issues. Thats just silly.
The BIG Ultrasound: We scheduled it for May 16. This is the big ultrasound where they take a good look at the little dude, and usually determine the sex. Since we're not finding out the sex, it will be slightly less climactic.......but its always good times to see our little creation up on the screen. And, if we don't want to know the sex, then they don't tell the doctor either. I thought that was kind of funny.

Anyway, thats all the news for now :) Its good to know things are moving along as planned!

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

UGH

I wish my clothes would fit me already! I'm officially in between - my pants don't want to button and my preggo clothes are still too big. UGH. It is sooo frustrating!!!!

I'm wanting to bad to feel some baby squirms inside me right now!!! I mentioned I thought I felt some a few days ago - but not much since then. Every night I end up falling asleep with my hands on my tummy, hoping I'll be able to feel something, but no such luck. I actually had a dream where I could REALLY feel it - but I'm pretty sure that was just my vivid imagination.....

Speaking of dreams, I've been told, by many a resource, that you are supposed to be subject to all these crazy wild sex dreams while you're pregnant. I haven't "gotten lucky" so to speak in my dreams so far, but the dreams I have had have been HELLA vivid and VERY very strange.

I've also been itching to go register for baby stuff. Pat tells me no. Dammitallanyway! We'll probably do it sometime next month after the 20 week check up - all I know for sure is that we won't be finding out the sex of the baby, so most of the stuff we register for will be neutral, and I know we'll be registering at BabiesRUs and Target. I actually already started the registries online, but don't have much added yet.

The big decision - the "theme" has already been decided. Its going to be FISHIES all the way! I've got a cute ocean friends theme picked out.



You could argue that its more boy-ee than girlie.....but since I'm a girl and I love fishies I think that qualifies it as girlie too. Our nursery/office/guest room is already painted blue anyway, so the ocean theme will fit well. And, lets be honest folks, the baby doesn't give a rats ass what "theme" they have - its all for the parents anyway, right?

I have an OB appointment on Friday morning - so I'll be posting shortly after that for any new news.

Monday, April 9, 2007

Hormones A Go Go

Man, I thought I remembered reading somewhere that the 2nd trimester is supposed to be "The Feel Good" trimester. All the hormones are supposed to be leveling off, and you're supposed to get all this so called energy back to take on the world.

Man, not the case with me. I'm just as tired as ever, and my hormones are about 20 times worse than before. The MOOD SWINGS, I tell you, are driving me crazy - and I'm sure they're maddening Pat even more so. The worst part of it all is that I have no control over them - I know whatever I might be feeling at any given time is unreasonable and ridiculous, but yet I can't control it. It really stinks.

Last night, I think Pat and I had an argument about brownies - home made from scratch vs. the microwave singe serving ones.....I'm not exactly sure how it happened, but I ended up getting angry and moving to the guest bedroom to sleep. Pat tried to get me back to bed, but I wasn't moving at all. Turned out to be a good decision, because the guest bedroom mattress is soooo much firmer and more comfy than our big poofy bed. We need a new one. Stat.

Anyway, he came back about 1:30AM and woke me up, which made me even more mad - but I came back to our bed anyway. Then the cats decided to be all crazy and running around full speed, so I was up again to lock them out of the bedroom so I could try to SLEEP. I was sooo crabby when I woke up today! And basically decided to blame it all on Pat...so I was a SUPER huge bitch for most of the morning.

I tell you what though - when Pat decides he's ready to make nice, its nearly impossible to resist him. Those big brown eyes, super soft kissies on my cheeks and uber cuddly snuggles and hugs....it takes serious willpower (read: Stubborness) to keep on being mad, and I'm usually pretty good at it. I finally broke down by noon though. He's just too cute!!

So the moral of the story? Pregnant women are unreasonable, and don't make any sense. So don't try to understand them.

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Flutters? Gas? Baby?

I think I felt the baby today.....I'm not sure though. I suppose it could have been gas.....but I haven't been very farty or anything, so I'm guessing it wasn't :) So hip hip hooray for baby movements!

I'm also slowly but surely outgrowing my clothes. A few pants that I have need to be unbuttoned - especially in the afternoon!

Other than that - no real new baby news to report.....just business as usual :) I have an appointment next week, so I'm sure there will be more news then!